after my practicum, which officially ended 29th april 2005, i met up with different groups of pple, with one thot in my mind: boy, am i blessed to have so many friends ard me. thank God!
on mon, which waz a public holiday, i went to pulau ubin with some friends. i reached the meeting place only to find out that there were friend's friends whom i did not know. hmm.. *i dun like strangers* *i dun like making new friends* *im super duper anti-social* anyhow, i din really have to interact with them, except when i needed help to change a punctured bike tyre. the rest of the time i spent talking to the few friends i already knew. it waz quite fun, coz i din feel any pressure to have to make conversation with pple i dinno - all i had to do waz to really relax and enjoy myself. dat waz cool for me.
after dat, i went to a dinner gathering with gd friends, to celebrate someone else's birthday. it waz gd to see everyone again, and i particularly enjoyed the open and comfortable environment we were in, being able to talk and share quite openly and freely, w/o any fear of being put down or ridiculed. i felt safe. i guess dats one of the beauty of friendship.
on tues, i went to sch and then to a chalet organized by my army friends. well, to be exact, they shld be called army acquaintances, at most, coz i din really know alot of them, and i had forgotten even more of their names. as i walked in, i realized many faces looked familiar, tho i cldnt find any names within my schemata to fit those faces. well, naturally, as you guessed, i interacted only with those few friends i already knew. it waz cool, catching up, and knowing everyone is doing fairly well, mostly waiting to go into uni. i felt a little awkward, being in the midst of many unfamiliar pple who all seem to know one another. i guess dats wat is meant by 'not being in the circle'.
on wed, i went to sch (again) and then to a dinner# with another grp of army friends. this time it waz cozier, with only 7 of us. i waz rather happy to see them, juz to catch up and know dat everyone is doing well. this nvr fails to make me feel gd. however, there waz a particular friend i wanted to see but din turn up. he had to rush to visit his ailing grandma. this guy is a pai gia, and is nowhere near the same as me, be it character wise, or interests wise. but somehow, i juz feel this is one friend i can make. altho i wun say we are the best of friends, but i believe there is a certain dose of sincerity in our dealings with each other, and dat im able to make a little difference in his life, and dat, to me, is cool enuff.
#: well, b4 dinner, i went to do some marking with another friend. to say the least, im not particularly close to this person, altho i wld say there is the potential to be. somehow, along the way, as we marked, we began to talk, and we had an amazingly gd conversation for over an hr. we, or rather he, mainly, talked abt our teaching experiences, teaching stunts, wat we really want and hope for our students, r/s issues, do we really want to teach forever, among others. i waz thankful for the honest and sincere and perceptive and wise sharing he gave, and many of the things he said truly blessed me and caused me to think. and i began to think it is really in such meaningful conversations dat a true friendship is borne.
so wat do gatherings mean to you? do gatherings mean different things on different occasions? or do they mean different things with different pple? do you look fwd to gatherings of all kinds? well, i like gatherings. i think.
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