Thursday, January 20, 2005

ok, there are many reasons for this entry, one of them being i have a 2-hr break from 1130-130. lesson supposed to start 1130, but the teacher change to 130 suddenly.. sianz. another reason is i find the below-mentioned song lyrics really meaningful. they might not be to you, but anyhow, i juz find them cool..

《回到过去》周杰伦
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分
- i particularly like the personification used here

Ginny Owens
songs will fade to silence
stories they will cease
the dust will settle
covering all my selfless deeds
- dun you think its so simply put, yet poignant? i particularly like the use of 'selfless' here. we all like to think that some of the wei da things we do are 'selfless' and 'noble', but but but, when the dust settles, it will still cover all our deeds, selfless or not..



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Saturday, January 15, 2005

那天看着电视不知不觉
眼眶湿湿
我让自己继续如此
努力抓住
那一刻
不让它流逝 不让它流逝
我不敢放下情感矜持
把面对残酷事实
当我发现自己
无法被感动
是否 是否 还应该有所保留

总觉得我们最缺乏的是 感动
天天为生活忙碌而不停转动
有时候想哭一场烈烈轰轰
才发现原来眼泪不再由我们操纵
或许我们已经忘了什么叫感动
对眼前的一切似乎都无动于衷
望着满天星斗的夜空
也寻不到一点可以让感情全放纵

1999年

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Wednesday, January 12, 2005

well, its been another long break since i last blogged. well, sch hols too bz liaoz, so no time for blogging.. hah. well, sch started 2 wks ago, and i have a disgusting timetable - weds thru' fris i have 4-hr breaks in between lessons. which is why im blogging at a time like this - 1348hr - in between my 4-hr break. disgusting.

anyhow, the sem got off to a rather gd start. my mods are rather alrite, with the exception of one. this guy cant teach, and he has nothing to teach either, alwaz trying to smoke us with some nonsense. no substance. and this is after my class and previous batches gave him bad reviews during the module-evaluation at the end of each sem. well, guess i'll juz have to bear with him for another sem..

this sem is rather short, anyway, with juz 6 wks of lessons in nie. so i felt rather sianz when the sem started. firstly, coz i had a great hols, juz playing and enjoying, and i din want it to come to an end. secondly, the short sem meant dat things were going to be really packed, and they really are - assignments, projs all squeezed within 6 wks. also, there waz the imminent practicum. this is the tricky part- tho i am quite looking fwd to actually teaching, and its finally coming, apprehension gripped me too, as i thot of how im going to plunge into this whole new world of 'a classroom' very soon. so it waz with all these things weighing on my mind dat i started the sem off feeling sianz. but so far, i think im feeling betta liaoz, meeting classmates and knowing im not alone in these fears and anxieties.

one interesting thing dat happened to me recently waz a conversation i had with a sec 4 kid on msn. this guy added me to his list, and i, being friendly as i alwaz am, added him too, not knowing dat he isnt anybody i know. he, on the other hand, thot i waz one of his teacher in sch, mr lee. and i tried, for the first part of the conversation, to convince him dat, tho im also a teacher, im not his mr lee. however, he simply refused to believe me, and thot i waz juz being lame and trying to be funny. so i gave up trying to convince him otherwise, and began talking to him instead. it waz quite an interesting chat, as i asked him who are the teachers he likes in sch, and why, and somehow, we talked abt his faith, and i waz allowed the privilege to encourage him to take dat faith step to trust and believe in Jesus, rather than wanting to see before believing. somewhere along this rather interesting turn of events, he found out fr his other friend dat im indeed not mr lee, but im glad ive since found 2 new friends coz of this 'beautiful coincidence' [they call it mei3 li4 de4 qiao3 he2 in chinese. *why dun i have such mei li de qiao hes with girls?*] - one, the guy who mistook me for mr lee, and the other, his friend, who told him dat im not mr lee.

the coincidence waz beautiful for, among others, 2 prominent reasons:
1. i managed to share Christ to the first guy, encouraging him to con't attending some cell dat he has been attending.
2. the second guy has since asked me if i can coach him on his chinese.
smile.

both of them are taking their Os this yr. their names are yirong and nic.

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